Life is good

Life is great

Life is unbelievable

Life is cruel

Life is hard

Life is so beautiful

Sometimes I just sit back and wonder about life

There are so many things to be thankful for

I could go on forever.

I am grateful for:

• my ability to swallow
• that i can go to the bathroom without help from anyone else
• Dylan
• Becca
• Melanie
• My sister
• my mom
• my dad
• my brothers
• my dog
• health
• walking ability
• movies
• that i can read
• that i can taste food
• that i can run
• UVU
• books
• rain
• bread
• ice cream
• my bishop
• that i can write
• that i can breath without a machine
• my car
• my friends
• the gospel
• Jesus Christ
• the spirit i felt today was incredible
• listening to people sing and it gives me chills
• my bed
• .....I could go on for days. But this is enough for now
  
  
  Life is good.
  
  "I never said it would be easy, I said it would be worth it."

What Changed This Month and What Do you hope will change next month

Well... I can honestly say that I in the process of changing my life. I know that there is plenty for me to work on. I need to refocus on the things that truly matter. Number One being my faith in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I somehow lost track of things this last summer and I know now what I need to do to get back on track and become the girl I was. I am so grateful for the atonement in my life and that the gospel is here to bless me. I know I need to focus on school. I can't fall behind. I have to get good grades. I also need to focus on my family. There are a lot of changes going on with my family and I need to help make sure that they are making it through. I also need to worry about my own life. I need to be aware of what I want and what I need to do. I know that this  refocusing will really and truly help.
What I hope comes from this next month is progress. I want to be better tomorrow than I was today and I want to be better the next day and so on and so forth. I want to be better each day. I want to be able to see the difference and feel the difference. Things are going to be better if I just keep my mind focused on the prize. Good things come to those who work for it. This life is one of action. You have to work for the things that you want. Prove it to the Lord and He will pull you through. You can't stand idly by hoping you'll be saved by grace.  I want to see the progression. I want to be on top of my school work. I want to be confident in my relationship with the Lord.

a picture of yourself

The Month you were happiest this year and why

It is really hard to pinpoint a certain month. But I am happy now. I love school, I love my job, I love my roommates, and I love my life. I have a wonderful family, a car, a nice place to live, I am making new friends and having so much fun. So why not be happy all the time??

Talk About Your Siblings

This one i am so so excited for! I love my siblings! 

There are 4 of us. And we are quite the bunch.

Here we all are!

The oldest of us is Jeffrey

He is very hysterical and is always making everyone laugh

He has a big heart and doesn't like to see people hurting

He plays volleyball

And he is good at it, just ask him! ;)

He plays guitar and sings well

He dances well too

He is an all around good guy

 My favorite memory with Jeffrey:

The night he got home from his mission he and 

I talked for hours in his room

We talked about everything. 

It was neat to get on a deep level with him like that.

That was the first time I had ever heard him say

that he loved me. 

He is an awesome big brother and I am so grateful that 

he is mine!!

I come after Jeffrey

But after me there is Tyler Ann

She is my only sister

She has a huge heart and is the most

loving and forgiving person that i know

She gives everyone second, third, and fourth chances even

when they don't deserve them.

Tyler loves animals and wants to pursue a career 

where she can work with them

Tyler is a very good dancer and she loves to sing and act

She does a great job with all of them

Ty is gonna graduate from high school this year.... weird

My favorite memory with Tyler:

We used to share a room and I would pretend

to sleep talk and Ty would talk back to me

Or when I really was asleep I thought that she was laying

on my side of the bed I would kick her off

She was such a good sport 

She just would get back in bed

We played bratz and barbies together too all of the time

or make up dances 

we had so much fun

After Tyler is Brandon

He is the glue that holds our family together

He is so funny and so sweet

Bran loves to play jokes and be funny

He loves movies and anything with cheese

Brandon is very tender hearted and doesn't like 

when people cry or are upset

Brandon is the baby of the family but he is most certainly one

of the tallest

It doesn't help that he walks on his tip toes all the time...

Brandon is a whizz on the computer

and can find just about any movie or song on the internet

It is a gift for sure

My favorite memory with Brandon:

I was crying one day and Bran

came up to me and hugged me,

patted my back, and said "There, there there. it's ok."

How sweet is he

I love that boy

I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!!

Your Religious Beliefs

I belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. It is the reason I am who I am. I love it so much. I love my Heavenly Father and I love my Savior Jesus Christ. It gives me so much hope and relief in my life. I don't know where I would be without it I don't know who I would be without it.

10 ways to win your heart

1. Call me beautiful

2. Say my name (like when you are talking to me)

3. Sing well and play a musical instrument or not

4. Ice Cream

5. Open the door for me (car door, doors to buildings, etc.)

6. Returned Missionary

7. Be able to carry on an intelligent conversation

8. Not be scared of my brother and interact well with him

9. Invest time in me. Meet me halfway (I don't do one way relationships)

10. When a man has nice hands, wears glasses, and has scruff

Good 'ol Bob

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." 

— Bob Marley

So far sooo fun!!

Weird thing i do when i'm alone

well... i don't really do weird stuff. I sing alot and I sing loud. I don't ever like to have silence so if i am alone i am playing guitar, listening to music, or watching tv (or at least it is on while i do something else). That way I prevent any anxious thoughts from over taking me because I am focused on something else. But as far as weird things go.. it would probably be dance in the mirror but i do that when people are around too....

Something you always think "what if" about

My younger brother has autism and I always wonder "what if he didn't? what would my life be like?" Things would be completely different. Our family would function in such a different way. It would be so weird, but then again it would be the normal so it wouldn't really be weird.

10 things about me people don't really expect

1. I'm from the real Salt Lake - not a suburb. salt lake

2. I don't play sports competitively 

3. I dance

4. I love love

5. I'm not crazy loud all the time

6. I love school so much

7. I crochet

8. I don't like being the center of attention

9. I have a huge heart and I care more for people than I probably should

10. I don't like Napoleon Dynamite

Something you can't seem to get over

I'm still not ok that Brad and Jen broke up. Who is with me?? Honestly you can't take a perfect couple and just break them up. It is wrong!!!! My dear dear friend and I were watching a documentary on Jen's life and we were crying because she was not with Brad. They haven't been together for forever now but I am still not ok with it. True love lasts forever so one day they will reunite.

The last argument you had

To be completely honest I can't remember the last argument I had. But I am sure there was one in my recent past. OH!! at work we argue about BYU and UofU alot. So I guess that would be the last argument I had.

God Loves Me

I just wanted to write a little post about ways that my Heavenly Father shows that he is aware of me.

1. My roommates. I haven't known them for 

longer than 2 weeks but I already feel like we 

are sisters. They genuinely care about me and what

goes on in my life. I honestly have never met nicer

people. Everything happens for a reason and God

knew I was going to need them to get me through

this semester. So far I have relied on them so much.

They have no idea how strongly their words, advice, smiles,

and kind hearts have effected me. I am so blessed.

2. I was having a bad day and I was with my mom at the 

grocery store. My old bishop came up to her and just started

telling her how great he thought I was. I don't know this

man very well but he just raved about me. He wants me to 

date his son.. which is so flattering because that means he trusts

me with his son and that he wouldn't mind having me around.

It was exactly what I needed to hear that day. 

something that never fails to make you feel better

I'll give you a list of things that work for me that help me to feel better:

• praying
• talking it out
• the song "you melt the madness"
• playing guitar
• priesthood blessings
• my mom
• crying
• throwing up
• running
• talking to my best friend. she is honest and blunt and it isn't what you want to hear but it is what you need to hear. she helps me to face reality. i need that. and she gives me that.
• ice cream

disrespecting parents

I don't think that it is a good idea to disrespect your parents. They are only trying to do what is best for you and they are looking out for you. They don't want anything bad to happen to you. I think that disrespecting your parents in some ways is unavoidable but you should try not to disrespect them as much as possible. They love you. Even though sometimes what they say is hard to understand you just have to accept it and move forward.

things that make you scared

• moving
• change
• loud noises
• dying without finding love
• drive by shootings
• the ocean
• car accidents
• lightning
• spiders
• falling
• my mom dying
• being alone forever

3 things you are proud about your personality

1. I am very open and loving. I accept all kinds of people and I love to meet new people. I think that talking to people and learning about them is so interesting and I am glad I have this talent because sometimes meeting new people is hard. Not only can I meet new people I treat them as if we have been friends for a long time and sometimes that backfires but for the most part I think it works to my benefit.

2. I'm proud that I can laugh things off. I don't usually get embarrassed and I am glad that I can just laugh.

3. I'm proud of the fact that I am responsible. I get things done and I take charge of situations.

i don't even know what to think or do right now. i want to take this whole summer back and pretend like it never happened. how did i let myself get here? i'm better than this. so much better than this. i feel so lost and stuck. i wish there was a quick fix to the pain i feel inside. I know i can feel better in the future but it is going to take sometime to get there. there is a lot of work that needs to be done and a lot of pondering to do. I need to understand who i am and why i am the way that i am, why i believe what i believe, and how i am always going to remain this way. i am a daughter of God and should be treated as such. I shouldn't let anyone shame me or treat me any other way than amazing no matter how much i think i like them. my testimony needs to be stronger. the church needs to become my number one priority. i need to be better.

The Best Thing That Happened To Me This Week

The best thing that happened to me this week was going to Karaoke with my homegirl. We sang a Justin Bieber song and killed it. So basically be jealous! I love going to karaoke. It is so much fun! We ate food, sang, and hung out with friends. We had so much fun!!! I loved it!

Something Disgusting You Do

Well shoot... If I have to pick one I would say bite my nails. It is gross. But I am compelled to do it. I can't not do it. I can pick them until they bleed and it doesn't hurt me but it is always messy and gross. So that is one thing that i do that is disgusting. but i have a few bad habits...

A Date You Would Love To Go On

I would love to get ice cream and just go for a walk and talk or watch a movie. I am very easy to please. I would also love going to an under ground band's concert. Music is always a good thing. The best dates involve those "best kept secrets" in the city. I think the out of the ordinary dates are the ones that are most memorable.

Things You Want To Say To An Ex

I am so happy for you. I know what we had didn't last but

you found someone that can love you and adore you in the way that you deserve

You guys are going to be so happy and you are going to

have a wonderful life together.

I wish you the best of luck.

your current relationship, if single discuss how being single is.

Well... I'm not really dating anyone. But we like each other and it is fun. But we live far apart from each other. Like 3 time zones away. So that makes for an adventure. I am not sure where we are leaving things. We haven't really talked about it yet. I guess that chat will come eventually. He is cute and fun and super sweet to me. We have good times together and we get along really well. I kind of keep him in check but he also helps me not be so serious all the time.

Your View On Drugs And Alcohol

I have never done drugs or drank alcohol. I never will. People who do drugs or drink alcohol can do whatever they want. That is their choice. But I think they regret it because they have become addicted. My friend has done drugs and has drank before and he told me that it was the biggest waste of time and money and it screwed up his body. He definitely regrets it. I don't wanna tell people what to do but I don't think it is a smart decision.

Your Last Kiss

Well.... for this one you are going to have to ask me personally. I am a very open person. But... I have learned to be careful about what I post on the internet. So if you want to know ask me.

Something You Are Currently Worrying About

Well this is a joke of a question. So I am not even going to answer it. I worry about everything. Ok but really right now I am worrying about school and making sure I do all my homework.