Long Time..

 I haven't blogged in such a long time. There has been lots going on. 

I am getting married in 5 days. I can hardly believe it. It is going to be the best day of my life.

I love J more than anything in the world.

With him everything makes sense.

I haven't seen him in 5 days and he comes home today.

I am so excited!!! I think that is part of the reason why I am up so early!

We get to have Christmas together and then 4 days later we get married!

It will be perfect!

Also... I have been obsessed with the show "Once Upon A Time".

It is all I have been watching for the past week.

Especially the past few days.

Once J gets back  I probably won't watch it as much

so I need to get it all in now!!! haha

It is really good. If you haven't watched it I suggest that you do.

It has a really fun twist on the fairytales that we all know and love.

Last but not least my cousin's baby turned one  yesterday.
It is so crazy how much has happened in a year!
He is one of the cutest little boys I know.
He has stolen the heart of everyone in the family.
He had a birthday party yesterday and we all ate cake and had a great time!
Love you baby!!

Bad Idea...

I ate SOOOOOOOO many salt and vinegar chips.

Now my mouth hurts

and my stomach hurts

and J thinks it is funny....

Oh how I love him :) :) :) :)

It's Been Too Long

I haven't blogged in a long time.

If I have blogged, it is just quick and seemingly thoughtless.

I have a few minutes so I can write a bit now.

Things are going so well for me!

I am loving my life. 

Thanksgiving is 3 days away.

I leave for Vegas in 24 hours.

I get married in 40 days.

Life is so great!

I have been contemplating the institution of the family. 

It is incredible.

Families are the only things that seem to last.

They are always there for you

They always love you

They want what is best for you.

I don't know about you but I feel so at home when I am with my family. 

I feel like I can be myself no matter what.

I feel safe when I am home. 

I love it.

Now I am in this new phase of life where I get to start my own family.

Weird. 

But how freaking exciting!!!

I'll be able to make my own traditions with the man I love.

I get to be a wife and a mother(later....much later!!).

How incredible!?

I am looking forward to creating a home where my own family feels safe to come back to and to stay for a while.

I can't wait.

40 days seems waaaaaaay too long.

It will come soon enough!!

I am a very happy girl!

Time is moving so slow...

I am getting married in 44 days!!!!!

All Smiles

I don't know what else to say...

but I am so in love. 

I have got to be the luckiest girl in the world.

I found the best man.

I have never been treated so well in my entire life.

I know God sent J to me. 

I couldn't make it with anyone else.

I am so happy. 

It is indescribable.

I wish it was December 29th already.

I can't wait!!!!

Nothing like getting to spend forever with your best friend.

55 more days!!

I love him!! <3

Engagements!!

just a few of our pics!!

New Family

So I went to temple square with my new family last weekend.

It was a lot of fun.

We had breakfast and walked around on the square together.

I hung out with B alot and we ran around and collected leaves.

She is seriously adorable!

I am excited to be a permanent part of this family! :)

I am a very blessed girl!

 The Family 

 Cute little B! So adorable right??

I love him! :)

May 3, 2013

I'm Engaged!!!!!

hard to love....

This is the theme song to my life. 

I am super blessed. 

Love you J.

I am insensitive I have a tendency to
 pay more attention to the things that
I need.
Sometimes I drink to much,
sometimes I test your trust,
 sometimes I dunno
Why you're staying with me?

I'm hard to love, hard to love,
I don't make it easy, I couldn't do it if I
Stood where you stood
I'm hard to love, hard to love,
you say that you need me, I don't deserve
It but I love that you love me. goood

I am a short fuse, I am a wrecking ball
crashing into your heart like I do
You're like a Sunday morning full of grace
and full of Jesus I wish that I
Could be more like you.

I'm hard to love, hard to love,
I don't make it easy, I couldn't do it if I
Stood where you stood,
I'm hard to love, hard to love,
 you say that you need me, I don't deserve
It but I love that you love me. Good
Love me good

 you've given me a million second chances
 and I don't ever wanna take
You for granted

You love me good.

Isolation

Sometimes there is nothing I want more than to be myself. I love having time to myself to just do what I want. Last night I was in my bed watching tv and loving my life!

This little girl....

I know of a girl who has always wanted to fall in love....She wasn't expecting it nor was she looking for it. She had been told over and over to stop looking for love and to focus on being the best her she could be. Then one day she met a boy. A very handsome boy! And he swept her off her feet. He showed her that it is ok to let someone in and to let someone care about her. He makes sure that she feels special and that she is taken care of. He makes her smile. He reels her in when she goes out too far. One day he kissed her, and then it happened.... She fell in love.

I am a runner!!

Yesterday I participated in a 31 mile relay race with some friends of mine!

We each ran 2 legs.

My first one was 4.55 miles in 37 minutes and 11 seconds

My second leg 2.98 miles in 31 minutes and 4 seconds

I was hurting real bad during that one.

I wanted to quit so bad

But I didn't. I knew I would be mad if I did! 

I am so proud of myself and my friends that ran with me!

We had a blast!

Torn

She screams for more... More than just a blue eyed metaphor. You guys I don't know what to do or what is right. I know I have to trust the Lord but sometimes that is scary.

Wanna see a cute family?? Ok!!!

All Done

Day 28: What stresses you out?

I don't know if this is a question you want to ask me. Right now I am stressed out about a new thing that I have going on in my life. I have never experienced something like this before and I want to stop it and make it go away just because it is new.... But that is just silly. So I am sticking with it and it is hard. I think I'll be so happy I did.

Day 29: Who is you hero?

This Guy

I'm not sure if it needs more explanation than that. My brother has gone through more than anyone should have to and yet he is happy. He loves his life. He understands that the simple things are what matter.  He makes me smile. I wouldn't change him for anything.

Day 30: A picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge.

Sorry just went to the gym so this is what you get!!

5 good things that have happened since I started this Challenge

1. I ran 2 miles in 20 minutes. Which may not be a great feat for you, but boy did I feel good!

2. I went on an AWESOME road trip with my friends

3. Started dating this super awesome cute guy

4.The olympics started

5. I got to spend a lot of time with my family

Catch Up

Day 21: Something you’re proud of.

I am proud of my friends. They just ran 200 miles in just over 25 hours. That is not an easy thing to do. They were so good about it too. They didn't complain and they didn't give up.   They ran every mile and did it with style. They met new people and let the light of Christ shine through them. I honestly am in awe and am so proud of them!

Day 22: What do you want your future to be like?

I want my future to be great! I want to be married to a fantastic man in the Salt Lake City Temple. I want to be a mom and have fun with my kids. I want to be able to stay home and raise them but if I have to go to work I want to be a social worker. I want to help the world become a better place. I want my kids to grow up and be successful in life and I want them to be happy. I also want my family to be close and tight knit and always doing things together!

Day 23: Favorite Movies and TV Shows.

My Favorite Movies are:

That Thing You Do

Harry Potters

Baby Mama

She's The Man

Favorite TV Shows

Drop Dead Diva

Criminal Minds

Psych

Bones

Day 24: Something you’ve learned.

This weekend I learned that there are dogs bred in Africa that can take down and hunt lions. They can run marathons as well. Up to 30 miles without stopping. Who knew??

They are called Rhodesian Ridgeback Dogs. They are beautiful. Despite their ability to take down lions they are actually very family friendly and do well with kids. Sounds like a perfect dog to me!

Day 25: Something you are looking forward to.

I am looking forward to school starting. I get to start my program and get immersed in the social work world! I honestly can't wait. I love school and I love learning. It is going to be so much fun! Go UVU

Day 26: Your Dream Wedding.

My dream wedding is one where I am married in the Salt Lake Temple to the man I love for time and all eternity. That is really all I care about. I want to have a dance party at my reception. So.... that would be an added bonus!

Day 27: Photo of your city .

Salt Lake City - this is where I grew up. I love it so much!!

Provo - This is where i live right now

Just got back!!

I just got back from Vacation today so i will catch up on the blog! I can promise you that!!

Day Twenty

Something You wonder "what if..." about

What if Brandon didn't have autism. What if he was able to 

communicate more effectively? What if he understood right from wrong?

What if I had grown up with a little brother who could say my name?

What if Brandon was healed?

Day nineteen

Things I want to say to an ex

Why didn't you break up with me like normal people do? I think I deserve to know the truth and have some closure. I heard things were going well with the girl who came after me and I'm truly happy for you. I hope you treat her well.

I loved you. I told you everything and trusted you with every secret I held deep inside. When you gave me back my heart I locked it down. Now you're coming around again and you want things to go back to normal. I can't love you like that again. You had me and you let me go. I'm done. I'm sorry.

I couldn't forgive you for a long time. I have now and it is so freeing. I hope that life treats you well and that you are happy.

I am so happy you found someone and that you fell in love and got married!! You deserved to be loved more than the way I loved you.

Day Sixteen, Seventeen, and Eighteen

16. My opinion about my body and how comfortable i am with it

I would say it depends on the day and the activities i am doing. If 

I am going shopping there is a very good chance that i don't like my body.

It all is relative to the situation.

Most of the time I am pretty much ok with the way I am

17. Itunes on Shuffle and the first 10 songs

1. Conviction of the heart - jericho road

2. tortured, tangled hearts - dixie chicks

3. goodbye  kristina debarge

4. cowboy take me away - dixie chicks

5. countdown - beyonce

6. cross your fingers - the summer set

7. green eyes- coldplay

8. great indoors - john mayer

9. staying's worse than leaving - sunny sweeny

10. forever - chris brown

18. Something I miss

Sorry

So lots has been going on and I am sorry I haven't posted in the challenge. I'll catch up tomorrow. Well I guess technically it is today. So later today I will catch up!

Day Fifteen

Death Row Meal

I would want some sort of sandwich with chips and a lemonade.

One time i was on a trip in seattle and i had this incredible sandwich.

that is the one that i want for my death row meal.

Day Fourteen

A picture of me from last year and how i have changed

This is me this time last year. I have changed a lot.

I did some things last summer that I am not that proud of.

Since then I have revamped my life. I have been more careful with how I spend

my time and who I spend it with. 

Not that who I was spending my time with last summer were bad

people by any means. Because they aren't.

I just have found that because I love people so much and I want

to help them that I get caught up in things that I shouldn't worry about.

I've learned to focus on myself. 

Things have gotten better for me. 

I am so happy!