Gah

Today I am just annoyed. I want to just shout to the world to mind their own business but in the process i would offend so many people. I know that I shouldn't let things bother me. But it really gets me down.
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I miss my friend. I told him everything. I would tell him all about this sort of stuff that annoyed me and he would joke around and say, "Let's beat 'em up" and "who needs them anyways". He always made me feel so much better about everything. About living here. He kept me sane. He broke me in so many ways. And I know that sounds dramatic but I mean it. He had me, I would do anything for him. I still would.
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There are so many bad things that bother me and hurt me, but then again I look down and there is a blessing in my life. I know she was sent to me for a reason. To get me through all of this craziness. She's singing "Imagine". Does she know the effect it is having on me? Not even a little bit. She's beautiful in so many ways. She is such an example to me. She thinks she is so rude, but she is wrong. I am a nicer and better person for having her in my life. How can I be sad when I have been blessed with someone so wonderful that I get to spend every day with?
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FLORIDA

I spent a week in Florida with my family! 

It was so dang fantastic.
I absolutely loved it.

Day One:

We flew across the country. Not super exciting....

Day Two:

Epcot

My favorite thing about Epcot was the world showcase

Day Three:

We went to see the Orlando Temple.

It was seriously so beautiful.

Day Four:

Today was the day we went to Hollywood Studios

I sang in the American Idol Experience.

It was so fun. 

I loved it!

And Bran got to meet Buzz and Woody

Day Five:

Today we went to Animal Kingdom.

We saw a baby elephant and gorilla 

and we got to meet Winnie the Pooh!

Day Six:

HARRY POTTER WORLD!!!!!!
CHANGED ME FOREVER!!!!

Day Seven:

Today we went to Disney World!

It was fabulous!

We had such a fun trip.

THANKS MOM AND DAD!!

More to come

I just got back from a most fantastic trip to Florida!!!!!!! It was so incredible. I had a fantastic time and did some  rare things. I will post a more in depth summary of my trip with pictures and everything soon!! WOO WOO!!!!

Unrequited

This is the place where I sitThis is the part where I love you too muchThis is as hard as it gets'Cause I'm getting tired or pretending I'm toughI'm here if you want meI'm yours you can hold meI'm empty and taking and tumbling and braking
'Cause you don't see meAnd you don't need meAnd you don't love meThe way I wish you wouldThe way I know you could

I dream a world where you understandThat I dream a million sleepless nightsBut I dream a fire when you're touching my handBut it twists into smoke when I turn on the lightsI'm speechless and fadedIt's too complicatedIs this how the book ends?Nothing but good friends

This is the place in my heartThis is the place where I'm falling apartIsn't this just where we met?And is this the last chance that I'll ever get?I wish I was lonelyInstead of just onlyCrystal and see through and not enough to you
'Cause you don't see meAnd you don't need meAnd you don't love meThe way I wish you wouldThe way I know you could

Waiting

I have a potentially really good thing 

right in my hands.

but

like everything else that is good

........

it is too good to be true.

At least for right now.

So now I wait.

Things have to get solved

which is ok

i want things to be worked out.

It is hard in the meantime

having something so good so close

and yet you can't have it.

so hard

but for now i will wait.

it's only fair.

no sense in closing the door on something great just because 

i can't have it right this second.

i'll wait.

they say good things come to those who wait.

It's My Birthday!!!!!!

So today was my birthday and it was absolutely fantastic. 

It has been one of the greatest days I've have in a long time.

I'm going to tell you some of the great things that happened to me today:

1. Woke up to a text from my Grandma :)

2. My clients at work were so excited that it was my birthday, probably more

excited than I was for my birthday!

3. My coworker made cupcakes for me and everyone at work today!

4. Got off work and checked my phone and I had 45 text messages with more

coming in as I was trying to read them all.

5. My best friend sent me a jillion texts about things I can do now that I am 21

and she sent me voice text that will go down in history!

6. Watched Vampire Diaries

7. Showered and shaved. It was heavenly. Not to mention I took my sweet time

getting ready because I could. Sometimes you just need that.

8. The Relief Society brought me a doughnut!

9. Woke up to a surprise from my cute roommate and she wrote my name on 

the mirror in the bathroom with sticky notes!

10. Had a cake made by my roommate at midnight and got to blow out candles even!

11. Didn't do any homework

12. Had my FHE family sing to me and my brothers gave me a pumpkin :)

13. Had smores

14. Serenaded by 5 men 

15. Given a pie from the sweetest boy in the whole world. (he remembered that I 

don't really like cake so he brought me a pie!)

16. Got cookies from a girl in my ward.

Everything great happened today and I am just so happy!

It has been a most excellent day!

:) :) :) :)