Realizations:

Last night I went down to Provo. I went to turn in job applications and see some 

of my friends that are down there. 

At first I wasn't too excited. Utah County just gets on my nerves. 

I turned in my applications and went to dinner with some friends.

After that I went friend hopping and saw some people that I hadn't

seen in a while.

It was so nice to see them.

My attitude changed and I was getting happier.

We talked and ate and talked and danced and laughed and everything else friends do together.

I had a blast. 

We went to applebee's for 1/2 appetizers and karaoke night. I met new people and ate 

delicious food. Nothing better right?

At applebee's my roommate was asking me how I was feeling about moving

down to Provo again and I said that I was excited to move but not at the same time.

Just really wishy washy about the whole situation. 

I told her I was going to miss my friends up here.

Which I will. 

Don't get me wrong.

BUT....

On my way home last night, I was driving by myself just listening to music

and it suddenly hit me that I am so so so excited to go back to school. 

Salt Lake is where my family is. Where my family life is. 

Provo is where MY life is. MY friends, MY school, MY home.

It is MY life. It is where I became me as an individual apart from everyone else I knew.

I do love Salt Lake.

But the person I am when I am here is different from the person I am at school.

(But really it isn't like I am two completely different people. I am the same me just one is more independent than the other. When I am home I am at home and not in charge, but in Provo I am in charge and I control everything.)

Last night I realized that I cannot wait to go back to school!!!!!!!

I will miss my house

my family

my dog

my best friend

my new friends

my old friends

the atmosphere of SLC

Salt Lake County

my bed

the movie theater technology

the dishwasher

free food

my job

netflix

free laundry

etc.

I could go on for days of things that I will miss.

Although I lose though things temporarily I gain so many other great things too!

My "vacation" has been so much fun.

I have had a blast this summer. I will always remember it. 

But I am ready to go back to school and see my friends. 

I have really really missed them.

Anyways.... There is my rant. I really hope that it made sense because I rambled for sure.